the bigger picture

we all know that God has a bigger picture for our lives. that there are things we'll never understand, but they fit into the BP perfectly. things that seem unbelievable or unfair. but we know, we trust that God has a better plan for us, and our situations.

so why then, when the things i mentioned above happen, do we immediately ask "why?"? if as a Christian, we're aware of the truth that God is mysterious and works in ways we don't always comprehend, why do we question it? because we're human i suppose.

the reason i ask, is because i found myself questiong God this week in regards to a pretty amazing revelation in my life. why now? why not a month ago? why not before i made the decision to leave? and then i found myself being angry that i would question Him. i know there's a BP here, and i'm not seeing it for various reasons. but i have to trust that this is just another piece to the puzzle. this is another stroke of the brush that is the tapestry of my life. so then i started to wonder what it was He was trying to teach me through it. and that's where i'm at right now. what lesson is there to be found? what does He want me to learn through it?

those questions are not easily answered, but i'm anxious to see what the outcome is.