Monday, April 30, 2007

American soil...

is quite possibly the best soil on earth.

there really is no place like home. and i'm thrilled to be back. or at least almost back. i'm currently sitting in chicago o'hare international airport. it's been quite the day, and i have to be honest and tell you all that i'm exhausted. but the adrenaline that's rushing through my system right now is covering it up enough so, so that i can write this blog.

but it's good to be home.

this morning as i said goodbye to becky, i wanted to jump back in the car and forget i even planned on leaving. it was too hard to look her in the eyes, let alone say those awful words. i just hugged her and told her i loved her. and then i turned and walked away without looking back. because i knew if i did, i would break down. and i needed to be strong this morning. not just for me, but for her too. so i just walked through the doors and down the train tracks.

and i miss her. so, so much.

we decided however that it wasn't goodbye for us. because we know that our friendship is more than just a few months of good laughs. we're closely knitted now, friends for life. and i trust that i'll see her again. in fact, i'm going to make sure it happens. because i can't live without her, and i refuse to try. so there.

ok, i'm done. i'm really tired and am comtemplating finding a quiet place to sit down and relax for a bit. this stool i'm sitting on is causing poor posture and my back is aching.

home sweet home, here i come.

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