so sorry

sorry i haven't written for awhile.

i feel like my last post was so open, so unbelievably right down into the heart of me, that i'm still recovering from even typing the words.

i'm hurting right now. and it's hard for me to think of anything else. i know i need to focus, try and push through the sadness, but it's not as easy as i thought it would be.
i'm working on it, but it's difficult for me to trust Him. trust that what He's speaking to my heart is really from Him. that it's the right choice.

anyways, i just wanted to post and let you all know that i'm still here. i'm still alive. and i'm still waiting. waiting on Him, before i make a final decision. theres still time.

i love you all.